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What Happened To My Motivation?

It should be no secret that I've been absent for a while. There are a number of reasons for that, but I often told myself the main reason was school. School was stressing me out. Don't get me wrong, I like my job, I love the kids and I love most of the people I work with, but I was definitely stressed.

I would come home exhausted but still know my job wasn't over. I had plenty of wife and mother resposibilities waiting for me when I walked in the door and that was enough to throw working out and longer but healthier prepared meals out the window. Towards the end of the school year, life was about finishing the school year. Between work, family and preparing for a move, a workout was the last thing on my mind.

But now school is over and I still haven't really worked out. Let's be real, I have only been out school for less than a week and am really enjoying relaxing and getting things around the house done while the kids are visiting their grandparents, but you would still think I would get some type of workout in. Nope. Not a one.

Why? The only thing I can think of is motivation. Or lack there of. I have a huge support of people both in my everyday real life and on social media but I still can't seem to use that get me moving. I have goals, which maybe I need to redefine, but I have them. I have encouragement and I have the desire, but maybe I don't have enough desire.

In my head, I want to work out. I want to get back to running. I want to lose the weight and hit my goal. But in my head, I know how stupid hot and humid it is outside and that doesn't go well with me. And I know that's an excuse. And not even a good excuse. There are other workouts I can do that don't involve being in the heat and humidity. Starting 21 Day Fix over, or how about PiYo, or any other the other workout DVDs I have in my house. And while swimming is outside, you don't feel that heat and humidity. 

But I'm still not going. And that honestly bums me out. I know once I force myself to go, that it will entice me to workout more often. It's taking that first step to establishing a new routine. I'm having a hard time taking that first step and I honestly don't know why. There's nothing really stopping me. Well except thinder and lightning with swimming and running. TJ and I actually tried to go yesterday, got to the pool and heard a loud clap of thunder. back to the house we went. We don't mess with Mother Nature. 

So what's my excuse today? I don't have one. Not a valid one anyway. The house can be cleaned later or tomorrow. The laundry will still be waiting for me when I get back, and blog posts will be waiting to be finished another time. 

So, that's it. The excuses stop here. Just writing this out is pushing me. Maybe that's all we need. A little push, or sometimes a gigantic shove to get us back on track. I'm heading to the pool to swim laps today. No if's, and's or but's (unless that but is thunder and lightning).

How and where do you find your motivation? What gets you to take that first step?

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